After that, I attended nine more funerals of good friends and relatives, all lost to everything, but natural causes, in just a two-year period, and I was pretty messed up. My quest eventually led me to do a series of self-help workshop seminars, a few years later, during which I experienced a complete emotional breakdown. 

I tried to barrel through the pain, as the seminar leadership had directed me to do, but try as I may, I was unsuccessful at breaking through it. When at last, I came to the end of myself, I cried out in desperation, “GOD, if there is a God, help me!

It was then, that I heard GOD’s marvelous, “voiceless voice” for the first time. He said, “Hello, Lulu.” When I looked around me, He said it again, and I knew my life would never be the same. 

I spoke to Him all the time for months, asking endless questions. Then, that particular holiday season, my good friend Shelly, invited me to her church Christmas party. I was 30.

During the party, Shelly told me that felt prompted by GOD to ask me if I would go into the alcove and pray with her. I agreed, albeit reluctantly, but the prayer she asked me to say really upset me. She wanted me to confess my sins, and to accept Jesus Christ as my LORD and Savior. I was outraged.

The problem was that I had a long-standing issues with certain “Christians,” who had for years been telling me that I was “a sinner going to hell,” without telling me what to do about it, which is why I had remained an agnostic for so long in the first place. 

I told her, that there was no way I was going to say that prayer, and she surprised me by calmly accepting my refusal without an argument. When we had returned to the party, I was very annoyed. Silently, I asked GOD, “Do you want me to say that prayer?” and I clearly heard Him say, “What do you think?” 

I squirmed, cringed, and sank low in my chair muttering irritably, “O—OK—fine! Then I told Shelly that I wanted to pray with her after all, but to make it fast. Out in the Church alcove, I went ahead and confessed my sins—which I really didn’t think I had any, (laugh out loud), and accepted Jesus Christ, whom I didn’t even know, as I was completely unchurched, and, lo and behold, I became a “born-again” Christian. 

Instantaneously I felt the whole weight of the word “sin” supernaturally lifted off of me, and for the first time in my life, I felt free and fulfilled. Then Shelly told me I had to tell at least one other person that I was saved, in order to make it public, but I was so excited by what had happened, that I went up front, took a microphone from the pastor, and told everyone! That was over 30 years ago and I’ve been walking with the LORD ever since.

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If you would like to become a born-again Christian like I did, just pray this prayer aloud,

GOD, forgive me for I have sinned. I freely confess that I have sinned in thought, word, and deed. Forgive me and wash me clean. I believe that Jesus died for me. Come into my life and change it. I make You my LORD and Savior, in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.